Sometimes, I'm wondering why I give much time, efforts and money for KPOP. Maybe because in the world of fangirling, I don't need to wear a mask. I can be whatever I want to be without conforming on what society dictates. I can be crazy and spazz all I want. I can do things I love and can't do in reality. And lastly, I can be extremely happy and fulfill my dreams even just for a short time.
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Thursday, March 7, 2013
I just hate this feeling...
I feel suffocated with the load of stuffs that I need to do just to satisfy those gruesome expectations.
Everyday, I wear 4 masks...one in front of my family...one in front of my friends...one in my workplace...and last is in front of my graduate school comrades...
I should finish my studies in the graduate school so that I could fulfill my promise to my family and satisfy the nuts of those eyes watching my every walks. I hate myself for having this pride though.
Now, I'm in dilemma whether I really like to be an English teacher? Well, that's the only option for me. When I was young, my dream is to be a magazine editor or fashion designer. But my resources, skills and appearance are not enough though. It will be just be my dream. How odd to think that I'm not that talkative in person but my work requires me to speak. And the fact that I can't feel any satisfaction when I do it. I just feel like a sore-loser.
I just want to live freely without any worries of passing certain standards. My only sanctuary is my fangirling life. It's good to be euphoric even just for a short time. But I need to still hide from those judgmental eyes because they think it's not right. Is it bad to be happy and free?
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Dream Kpop Fantasy Concert is like HEAVEN...
I got to see 6 KPOP groups (Infinite, Tasty twins, Ukiss, Tahiti, EXO K and M and SNSD) with my kpop chingu Shiena , Angelica , Jane plus two new Inspirit friends Felisandelle and Melanie.
GG's HIGHLIGHTS: Tiffany's Philippines, put it back on and English, Jessica's Someday, Yuri's abs, Yoona's lito moment na nakita sa LCD screen, Sooyoung's skinny body, Seohyun's angelic face, Sunny's kyeopta face na mukhang pusa sa sobrang cute, Taeyon's birit moment, and of course Hyoyeon's the moves..so thankful na kinanta nila ang Genie, The Boys and Gee plus Dancing Queen and IGAB..sayang they didn't sing my fave Run Devil RUn..
Infinite's HL: Woohyun's fanservice,Seungyol na mailap sa cam, Sungjong's skin-omg!nakakasilaw maknae~ Hoya's arms(insert fangirl scream), Dongwoo's rap, Sunggyu's malalinyang mata, Myungsoo's buong pagkatao*faints* plus Infinite H's Special girl dance break..sayang di ko narinig ang without u..
I'm not a big fan of Ukiss and Tasty, pero after q clang mapanood,,OMG! they're so galing! lalu na tasty. Napanganga na lang ako sa pagkaWOW ng dance moves nila.Dati Kiseop bias ko sa ukiss kaya lang parang may mga gumugulong bias wreckers-Kevin, Eli and Dongho. Yun tahiti, cute ng boses at catchy ung songs..so nice na they sang their gangnam style cute version.
Pero ang pinakanaghirap sa gabing yun ay EXO K and M with their Hawak Kamay and Open Arms..omona! I'm a fan na. Kris' English and it's so hot here and my biases of the night Suho and Chanyeol with his red guitar..it was awesome because of the kpop stars..
Pero sana next time, sa moa arena na ndi sa concert grounds..hirap humanap ng tamang pwesto sa pandak namin na to ni Shiena.Buti na lang mega-ninja moves kami ni Shiena to get the right spots...haha..
Fangirl sisters: kitakits ulit tau lalu na sa MAMA 2014...di muna kami sa 2pm..pahinga muna..pero malay mo manalo ng tix..hehe..see u next time...
Thank you nga pala sa mga naglike at share ng photos nung DKFC contest promo..kahit di kami nanalo ni Shiena ng presscon passes, nakakatuwa lang isipin na marami pala kaming friends...hehe.. =)
Pero ito, back to reality na naman..ang KPOP concert ay isang dream na mala-Cinderella ang peg ko palagi..dream na sana forever...haizzz...
The experience is surreal... (^_^)
Only fangirls like me know and understand what I'm feeling right now..T.T..call me cheesy and cheap but this addiction makes me cry because of too much joy...GUILTY PLEASURE 101...
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Friday, January 11, 2013
I just happened to find this old poem that I made while I'm arranging my old school stuffs after we transferred to our new house. I remember, I 'm still in the grade school when I made this. It was also during that time when I need to transfer in Bulacan with my family leaving my dream of studying in a science school. My wordings pa nun ay masyadong base sa emotion...haha...
Anong Pangarap Mo? Ah...eh...
Munting pangarap na di mahagilap
Inaalam ngunit napakahirap
Nag-iisip mula hapon hanggang gabi
Ngunit pag tinatanong ay di tiyak ang nasasabi
Gusto ko nito, gusto ko niyan
Gusto ko maging mayaman
Ito, iyan, lahat inaasam
Ngunit sa huli'y di ako nasisiyahan
"To have your childhood dream realized is a really big deal."-Maya Rudolph
Sunday, January 6, 2013
Sparkling Magazine @SparklingMag ~ I love the latest winter issue not just because my Junpyo and SNSD are in the cover but I also saw my name in the fan letter section ! waaaah! Tnx much! More power ♥♥♥ (～o❤‿❤)～o
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